Happy almost Easter.

Sooo tomorrow after work Ryan and I are heading to Geneseo to spend Easter with my parents. It's been like almost a year since I've been out there, so I'm looking forward to seeing my puppy and kitty, and I have missed my mom's cooking :)

And as an added adventure, we are taking our kitties with us. I must say I am really looking forward to spending 4 hours in the car with them (each way), and I'm sure they will be completely calm and well-behaved the whole time.....yeahhhh ok.....

Plus they have never met a dog before, so that should be fun as well. Hopefully all the 4-legged critters will get along and be friends. We shall see.

So I told Sera we were taking him on a trip tomorrow, and apparently he decided he wanted to travel in the duffel bag rather than his carrier...



Happy Easter! :)

Ramblings...

I wish I was more creative, because there is so much inside of me that needs to be expressed, but I am clueless as to how to let it go. I pretend to be a poet, an artist, a writer, but the truth is I'm a confused twenty-something of average intelligence and minimal talent who craves some sort of depth and purpose.

In other news, I am feverishly searching for a cute Easter dress, but so far I haven't found anything that meets my expectations. Ryan and I (and the kitties) are going to my parents' for Easter, and between being in the crazy farm and being a nanny, it has been super long since I've dressed up for anything. I WANT A CUTE DRESS! I'm planning to hit up a few more places this weekend, so hopefully I'll stumble across something fabulous (and relatively cheap).

Also, I just finished the Time Traveler's Wife, aka book #1 of the Kristy and Rachel Book Club (we're really going to have to come up with a better name). Let me preface my review by saying that I LOVE reading. It is and always has been my favorite pastime. Unfortunately, due to the recent worsening of my mental illness, my concentration level has been nearly non-existent, therefore making my beloved hobby rather difficult. It has been months since I was able to read a book from start to finish without giving up halfway through. I am happy to say that this book snapped me out of my reading rut. It is the first book in a long time that totally sucked me in. I couldn't put it down. It was sooooo good (and also incredibly sad). I highly recommend it to anyone looking for a good read. And now I am in search of book #2 of the KRBC (seriously, name?) If anyone has suggestions, let me know.

Back to this.

I hate not being able to sleep. Hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it.


I miss my Seroquel.

I'm not so good at this diet thing

I just ate a whole pint of chocolate ice cream with chocolate syrup. I blame it on pms and my slightly depressed mood.

I've been more self-destructive than usual today i.e. taking handfuls of ibuprofin, fixating on thoughts of cutting, and as stated above, binging on crap. Stewarts has buy one get one free boxes of chocolate chip cookies right now, so it looks as if my downward spiral will continue.

As of tomorrow night I will be out of Seroquel, which won't be as bad as when I run out of Cymbalta in a week or so.


So now I find denial in my eyes
I'm mesmerized
by the picture that's in my mind

Sometimes I can't explain

And I'm so sorry that I can't

It aint hard to see

Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were...

Too many times I have wondered...

What all the trying is for
You come around
I feel so down
I want to drown
Cause I know
that you're
falling
short.

Today is probably the worst day depression-wise that I've had in a few weeks. It's not horrible, just not good.


I don't really know what else to say.

Happy leap day.

yeah, that's about it.

Fun photo meme

Here's how it works:
1. Go to www.photobucket.com (don't sign in)
2. Type in your answer to the question in the "search" box
3. Use only the first page
4. Click on THE PICTURE you like best
5. Copy the html and paste for the answer

1. What is your first name?





2. What's your favorite thing to do?



3. What is your relationship status?



4. What's your favorite color?



5. Who is your favorite celebrity?



6. What band are you listening to right now?



7. What's your favorite movie?



8. What is your favorite beverage?


9. What is your dream vacation?



10. What is your favorite dessert?



11. What do you want to do when you grow up?




12. What do you love most in life?





13. One word to describe yourself?