It's been a while since I've done this. Almost exactly a year in fact. But recently I've realized how much I miss having somewhere to rant, celebrate, blabber, and just...think. I knew I couldn't go back to my old blog. I'm a completely different person than I was then. New life, new attitude, therefore: new blog.
So...here goes. Currently, I am a 23 year old social worker, I live with my boyfriend, we have no money, but we are damn happy. One year ago I was in the midst of a major depressive episode and never thought that I would ever be as content as I am right now. Not to say that life is perfect, it definitely isn't and believe me, I will spend a lot of time complaining about things. But I think back to last summer when I couldn't even get out of bed, and it's amazing to see how far I have come.
I have a job that I love and that challenges me every day. I work with families at risk of having their children put in foster care, or who already have children in foster care, and help them minimize their risk factors so that the family can be/stay united. Some days it breaks my heart, but I've never felt more fulfilled.
My boyfriend is the best thing that has ever happened to me. After years of being used, abused, and discarded by men, I finally found someone who loves and respects me, and tells me so every day. I have never felt beautiful in my life until I met him, but the way he looks at me makes me believe I am beautiful.
I lost almost all of my "friends" last year, and now have a very hard time letting people get close to me. But recently I've made a few friends who have managed to break down that wall. It's so nice to have people in my life who don't judge me or tell me I'm a liar and a victim.
So that's where things stand right now. I'm definitely not the most interesting person in the world, but I enjoy my simple little life, and I am so happy to be free of the pain and self-doubt that held me back for so long.
More rambling to come. Peace.
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