Kitten soup

I've got to get out of this rut.


PS: Humiliation = having to ask your boss for a food card so that you don't die of starvation over the next several days.

Gender issues

So...turns out my little baby girls are actually little baby BOYS. That's right, the vet informed Ryan and I that we are the proud parents of male kittens, instead of the little females we thought they were. Now this isn't exactly a huge deal, except for the fact that the names Bella and Sera do not quite exude masculinity. Unfortunately, they already know and respond to these names, and we are quite attached to them as well. So, do we change their names and confuse them, or keep their names and confuse everyone else? Thoughts? Suggestions? Anyone?

Vita-what?

A few things:

1) The "issue" from my last post has more or less worked itself out. Hopefully more rather than less.

2) I am pretty sure I'm really bad at my job.

3) Going along with #2, I have my 6 month eval at work on Monday which means I'm working like mad to get my files up to date. And even if I get them done, I'm not expecting much good from it.

4) I love my kittens.

5) I got a job baby-sitting for a family in Guilderland on Tuesday and Thursday nights. Yes, I'm a 14 year old high school girl.

6) I am tired ALL THE TIME. I think I should start taking vitamins.

And I'm thinking to myself...

I gotta make a big decision today
And I hope I choose a better tomorrow
Rather then a better yesterday
Seasons change
And you grow a little older
Nothing stays the same
The past becomes the future
(susie suh)

So, I'm confused about a lot of things right now, things I never thought I'd be confused about. I'm trying to sort it all out in my head, but keeping it inside is really starting to get to me. I don't know who I can talk to about this though, because I feel like no one will understand. I don't even understand.

I'm just kind of lost right now, and coming to some realizations that I never wanted to come to.

I'm just so...conflicted.

Help?

Yes, I am that crazy cat lady all the little kids are afraid of.

So I've come up with a plan for world peace: give everyone in the world a pair of kittens. Seriously, it is just impossible to be angry or violent when you have 2 baby kitties to play with. And if you are angry or violent, all you have to do is look at them cuddled up on a pile of laundry and you'll say "awwww!" and forget all about your problems.

So needless to say, I am very much enjoying my cute baby girls. They are the most adorable things in the history of the world. Ever. For real.












See? That's Bella sitting in Ryan's shoe. Still don't believe me?












That's Sera proving she's a Yankee fan just like her Mommy. Still unsure? Wow, you must be a heartless bitch. Okay, here we go...






















Yep, thought that would do it. They sure do loooove to cuddle :)

So make the world a better place...get a kitten!