Interesting (and somewhat painful) countdown

Ten Anonymous Things You Want To Say To Ten Different People:
1. I am so proud of you. You live life by your own terms, and don't care what anybody else thinks. Sometimes I wish I could be more like you. (Sometimes)

2. I only talk to you because I have to, not because I want to. The truth is you drive me crazy and I can't stand listening to your judgmental whining. I hate that I'm the only person you feel you can talk to, because I really don't like talking to you. I will always love you, I just don't like you very much.

3. I. am. so. disappointed. in. you. I believed everything you said, believed you were being genuine and true, and you just let me fall flat on my face...confused and hurt beyond words. And the saddest part is, I still miss you.

4. You are a liar. I am the only one who sees you for what you really are. You stole my life, through your manipulations and your lies. Well you can have it, it was never really that good to begin with. The life I have now is much better anyway. I pray that one day karma bites you in the ass.

5. You are the first person who ever truly loved me for me. I love you.

6. I am so grateful for your friendship. Even though hardly ever see each other anymore, and sometimes we go days (even weeks) without talking, I know that you are ALWAYS there for me if I need you. I hope you know that goes both ways.

7. I considered you my best friend. More than that, I considered you family. We were so close, we told each other everything, we were inseparable. What happened? Why did you wake up one day and decide you hated me? How could you treat me like that after everything we went through together?

8. You are my hero. I hope you don't feel that you failed me, because you never ever did. Any pain I feel now is of my own doing, not yours. I thank you for everything you have done for me, and for everything you continue to do. I love you so much.

9. I used to resent you, but now I know that all you ever did was love me. I hope I make you proud.

10. Ryan and I have been living together for over a year, and he's an atheist!

Nine Things About Yourself:
1. I am sensitive and emotional.
2. I want to make a difference in the world.
3. I believe in God but don't identify with a religion.
4. I would like to believe passionately in something, but I don't know what.
5. I would rather stay at home with my fiance and my kittens than go out to a bar or club.
6. I love with my whole heart.
7. I love animals and children, and often feel closer to them than humans/adults.
8. I love to read, write, and draw, but I wish I was more creative.
9. Music = life.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. honesty.
2. humor.
3. trust.
4. personality.
5. hugs.
6. initiative.
7. being there for me.
8. being passionate about something.

Seven Things That Cross Your Mind A lot:
1. my past.
2. my future.
3. love.
4. why?
5. "to do list" of life.
6. wow.
7. huh?

Six Things You Wish You Never Did:
1. let them treat me the way they did.
2. acted the way i did when they left me.
3. let things get so far out of hand before asking for help.
4. hurt people that I never intended to hurt.
5. spent so much money.
6. left on such bad terms with my last job.

Five Turn Offs:
1. too loud.
2. too forward.
3. being a "player."
4. no life plans or goals.
5. not respecting me.

Four Turn Ons:
1. respectful.
2. sexy eyes.
3. sexy smile.
4. can make me laugh.

Three Smiley's That Describe Your Life:
1. :)
2. :*
3. :/

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. go to South Africa.
2. adopt a child.

One Confession:
1. I am so afraid I will never truly be happy.