Yo pendejo, chupa mi verga!

Word.


PS. Today I realized how different my life would be without craigslist. I found my job, my kittens, and my apartment there. If only I had found Ryan there it would be like my whole life. But still, it's kinda frightening how craigslist rules my entire world.


Yeah that's all.

My weekend as represented by kitty pictures

So as previously reported, we left on Friday to go to Geneseo for Easter, taking along our little kittens. And of course, I couldn't resist taking tons of pictures of my babies...and my puppy Lady and my mom's cat Rascal. Seriously, if this is how obsessive I am with documenting my animals, it will frightening when I have children of the human variety.

But anyway, the boys were soooo good in the car both ways to and from Geneseo. I was so proud of them for being such little troopers. We stopped at a rest stop on the way to let them stretch their legs (by running around inside the car) and to give them some food and water. They were so fascinated with looking out the windows at all the people and cars.













We made it to my parents' without any major mishaps, but then it was time to introduce them to Lady and Rascal. Let's just say it was not love at first sight. We ended up keeping them separate from Lady the whole weekend after she tried to "play" with them a little too roughly and Sera whapped her on the face which made her snap at him. Rascal was a little pussy (pun intended) and hid in the basement even though he is bigger than both of the babies put together. As the weekend went on, Rascal and the babies started to warm up to each other (although there was some hissing and growling involved). When we left on Monday, they had gotten to the point where they would all sit in the same room staring at one another and gradually moving closer together. If we had stayed another day or 2, I think all the boys would have been bestest friends.

Anyway, while we were there my mom made me clean out my old room, which resulted in Ryan and I torturing our babies by putting them in hats. Well, the hat I put on Sera was actually too big so it's more around his whole body, as you will see.















The boys also really loved cuddling on my parents' bed, at times with my mama :)












(those are my mom's legs Sera is sleeping on)

But alas, after a nice visit with the parents (and lots of good food), it was time to come home. Bella and Sera were super good on the way back to Albany as well, and again, we stopped at a rest stop to feed them and let them look around.












All in all, it was an enjoyable long weekend, but we were all very happy to come home.

Happy almost Easter.

Sooo tomorrow after work Ryan and I are heading to Geneseo to spend Easter with my parents. It's been like almost a year since I've been out there, so I'm looking forward to seeing my puppy and kitty, and I have missed my mom's cooking :)

And as an added adventure, we are taking our kitties with us. I must say I am really looking forward to spending 4 hours in the car with them (each way), and I'm sure they will be completely calm and well-behaved the whole time.....yeahhhh ok.....

Plus they have never met a dog before, so that should be fun as well. Hopefully all the 4-legged critters will get along and be friends. We shall see.

So I told Sera we were taking him on a trip tomorrow, and apparently he decided he wanted to travel in the duffel bag rather than his carrier...



Happy Easter! :)

Ramblings...

I wish I was more creative, because there is so much inside of me that needs to be expressed, but I am clueless as to how to let it go. I pretend to be a poet, an artist, a writer, but the truth is I'm a confused twenty-something of average intelligence and minimal talent who craves some sort of depth and purpose.

In other news, I am feverishly searching for a cute Easter dress, but so far I haven't found anything that meets my expectations. Ryan and I (and the kitties) are going to my parents' for Easter, and between being in the crazy farm and being a nanny, it has been super long since I've dressed up for anything. I WANT A CUTE DRESS! I'm planning to hit up a few more places this weekend, so hopefully I'll stumble across something fabulous (and relatively cheap).

Also, I just finished the Time Traveler's Wife, aka book #1 of the Kristy and Rachel Book Club (we're really going to have to come up with a better name). Let me preface my review by saying that I LOVE reading. It is and always has been my favorite pastime. Unfortunately, due to the recent worsening of my mental illness, my concentration level has been nearly non-existent, therefore making my beloved hobby rather difficult. It has been months since I was able to read a book from start to finish without giving up halfway through. I am happy to say that this book snapped me out of my reading rut. It is the first book in a long time that totally sucked me in. I couldn't put it down. It was sooooo good (and also incredibly sad). I highly recommend it to anyone looking for a good read. And now I am in search of book #2 of the KRBC (seriously, name?) If anyone has suggestions, let me know.

Back to this.

I hate not being able to sleep. Hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it.


I miss my Seroquel.

I'm not so good at this diet thing

I just ate a whole pint of chocolate ice cream with chocolate syrup. I blame it on pms and my slightly depressed mood.

I've been more self-destructive than usual today i.e. taking handfuls of ibuprofin, fixating on thoughts of cutting, and as stated above, binging on crap. Stewarts has buy one get one free boxes of chocolate chip cookies right now, so it looks as if my downward spiral will continue.

As of tomorrow night I will be out of Seroquel, which won't be as bad as when I run out of Cymbalta in a week or so.


So now I find denial in my eyes
I'm mesmerized
by the picture that's in my mind

Sometimes I can't explain

And I'm so sorry that I can't

It aint hard to see

Who you are underneath
I'm still in love with who I wish you were...

Too many times I have wondered...

What all the trying is for
You come around
I feel so down
I want to drown
Cause I know
that you're
falling
short.

Today is probably the worst day depression-wise that I've had in a few weeks. It's not horrible, just not good.


I don't really know what else to say.